How singledom came to be...

It has recently been suggested to me that my life is heading down the wrong path, this was in direct assault of the love/ relationship aspect of my life.  Of course I became very defensive and began to defend my past failed relationships and my oh-so-wrong choices to date.  But following the confrontation I took the time to reflect and realized that I must come to terms with my love demons.

"I am a monoga-drone"
At 16 I was involved in my 'first-love' relationship.  It lasted one year and of course I was certain that I was in love and could not live without this person in my life...this way of thinking has pretty much formed a pattern for the rest of my relationships.

At 18 I was involved in my second 'serious' relationship which lasted 4 years.  Too long.  I learned life lessons on what NOT to accept in a partner from this relationship.

At 22 I was involved in yet another 4 year relationship.  For 4 years I was with a person who I once again loved, but who I wanted to change from the person he was to the person I wanted him to be.

Ages 27-29 yet another love of my life.  This time I was dumped...my first heartbreak.  My first recovery from heartbreak.

I'm now in my longest stretch of singledom since the age of 16, but... "I don't think I'm doing it right".